Four years six months plus
I don't entirely know why I am choosing to write again. Maybe a dissatisfaction.
I hate my job. It is upsetting and demoralizing. But doesn't it always come to this? Maybe I am just not a good worker. Maybe I have a strange sense of entitlement.
I just think that if I work 90 hours in a week, I should get some sort of acknowledgement. Instead of radio silence. Instead of annoyance that I dare take days off since I've had a strep since February 24th.
I am about ready to quit. Just quit, start substitute teaching and find some other random job.
Other things that have happened since October 2008:
My boyfriend and I broke up.
I left my job in DC.
I left DC.
I drove across the country with my cats.
I came back to Salt Lake City and became part of a family again.
I started working as an instructional designer.
I gained a lot of weight.
My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 melanoma.
I lost some weight.
My daddy died.
I gained 50 pounds.
I live in squalor.
I will probably have my tonsils out.
I think I'm going to go to graduate school to become an elementary school teacher.
My dad really is still part of my life.
I have been travelling around Utah quite a bit.
In fact, maybe this resurrection will include a chronicle of my various jauntings.
Mostly I am tired, sick, broke, fat, lonely, dehydrated, malnourished, blah blah blah.
I have been reading Rolling Stone lately and trying for the first time in my life to know what music is popular NOW. I find I like hip-hop with lots of profanity. It is somehow therapeutic. If I start jogging again, I will jog to this music.
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